Hold your applause, but tomorrow, December 24th, is my birthday. I’m in good company with Santa and baby Jesus!
If someone asked me how old I feel I am, I’d say about 450 years. All the shit I’ve been through to get where I am today, I’ve moved mountains through centuries. You could say I’m a young 450-year-old. I stay in shape 😉
There was a phase in the first half of my life when I never thought I would live this long – or maybe more to the point, wanted to live this long. Unlike some of the people who come to me, I didn’t think about suicide, but I wondered if living the way I was living, emotionally distraught and often in despair, was worthwhile.
I think what kept me going was the hope that there was something better waiting for me. It was a tiny glimmer that I clung to, and I used to say that I’d keep searching for the answer to feeling better until the last breath on my deathbed. Thank god, I didn’t have to wait that long.
About 10 years ago I encountered the healing method that ended My Search. It’s a revolutionary discovery that emotions are an essential part of our very accurate sensory system; they’re a source of information to avoid trouble, heal the past, and help access the peace and happiness that are the goal of every being. Through this work, I learned what emotions are and why they “bother” us. I learned to intuitively drop in to feel them by accessing my invisible inner life through active breath work and expressive body movements (oh yeah, and some plant medicine 🍄). Through this Emotional Liberation method I processed and released the emotional pain and the trauma that underpinned it.
Am I really using that term?!
In the first year I did this Emotional Liberation thing I felt, to borrow from bible speak, “reborn.” It truly reset my life – I was clear and emotionally resilient. While emotions flew off the charts around me, I walked in calm, centered clarity. Why would I want to do anything other than show people this same path, I asked myself. So having committed myself to this work, it’s what I do today.
So it’s with a particular satisfaction that I learned to use my unruly emotions as a bridge to my soul. I was in my late 50’s when that happened in 2014. I used to think my age was a detriment in supporting others and teaching this work. But it’s quite the opposite. It turns out that I can meet whomever comes to me right where they are, regardless of their age. I know their pain and I’m familiar with the desperation of finding something that works. Oh man, I know! I lived nearly 60 years before I knew emotional healing.
In the new year, I’ll be teaching a full-on masterclass course that will take you for the ride of your life. In fact, I’m going to be teaching with the creator and developer of Emotional Liberation along with another colleague who is a gifted therapist. For those who want it, I’ll be guiding psilocybin microdosing – a potent amplifier of this work.
If this resonants for you, jump on my interest list for the latest information and early bird tuition and I’ll tell you more as we get ready to release it in April.
Meantime, yes, tomorrow I’ll be celebrating with Santa and baby Jesus! And as I turn 68, I’ll toast to the fact that in many ways I’m just getting started. After all, Methuselah lived to be 969 years old.
While I’m at it, please know I’m sending you my most positive thoughts as you move into your new year. Make it the best yet and if you need inspiration, think about joining me and my colleagues for a transformational journey that will reset your life.
P.S. Maybe a little off-topic, but I highly recommend the Netflix limited series, Surviving Death: What happens after we die? It explores personal stories and research on near-death experiences, reincarnation and paranormal phenomena. Have fun!