I often get letters from folks sharing their experiences and asking questions. This correspondence can offer spectacular insights and musings that answer questions that many others have on their mind. So I’m sharing one with you today…
Hey Becca, my struggles with alcohol have subsided greatly, however nicotine has its claws in me. I’m currently working on that with Chinese herbs and running. Any suggestions? 
– Laura
Hi Laura,
As we learn in the Emotional Liberation program, dependence or addiction is actually a smart strategy to numb what is tormenting us. If we’re emotionally hurting and don’t know what else to do, finding solace in alcohol, nicotine, prescription mood managing drugs and the like can take the edge off our suffering. But, of course, this kind of escape has its own trouble-making drawbacks.
So I believe to ultimately be successful in tapering off a substance, we want to get to the core of the trauma that is underpinning our emotional misery. The related trauma may be close to the top and very ripe to be released – or still deeply embedded.
Personally, as I shed layers of trauma, there were/are deeply embedded layers in the very fibers of my physical and energetic bodies – mostly around Shame and crippling self-doubt. I found that microdosing psilocybin gave the extra oomph! to unearth and release the emotions – and in turn the trauma – as I faithfully did my daily 11-minute practices. That’s why I introduced this plant medicine into my Emotional Liberation work.
At any rate, enough about me;) I invite you to stay present to your nicotine “go-to” and every time you decide to roll a cigarette or smoke one, you can ask yourself, “Why am I doing this?”
Contemplating this question will keep you in awareness – rather than reaching for it on an unconscious level. Be sure to do it without Shame or Guilt – you know, that wagging finger/judgmental self-talk that says (fill-in-the-blank) but often something like this, “You’re such a loser! You’ll never amount to anything.”
And, when you’re able to plug-in to this awareness, you can more easily see this self-talk and be aware of your emotional state (“I feel so worthless!”), then identify it: “Ah! that’s Shame!” and ask: “What is this Shame wanting to tell me?”.
And then go ahead and smoke, perhaps even honoring the substance in a ritualistic manner for helping you move along your path. Your inquiry and awareness at this point may very well reveal life-changing answers to you.
How does that sound (and I ask this of anyone who is resonating with what I’m saying)? Is it something that you might be able to try? I highly recommend this practice in getting acquainted with why we’re doing what we’re doing. It can pay dividends!
With Love,
P.S. I always love hearing your insights and experiences. I invite you to drop down to the comments section and share what has come to mind for you as you’ve been reading this.

MEDICAL DISCLAIMER: Psilocybin is a largely illegal substance and we do not encourage or condone its use where it is against the law. However we accept that illegal drug use occurs and believe that offering responsible harm reduction information is imperative to keeping people safe. For that reason this information is designed to ensure the safety of those who decide to use plant medicine.