He couldn’t understand why he felt so miserable. Accomplished and highly educated, my client was bringing in a handsome income and lived a life that others would envy – even during this age of COVID-19. Yet he was dissatisfied with his work, his position, hated the company culture and his personal relationship was “so-so”.

He wanted it to be the way “it used to be” recalling that he was in a happier place back then. He kept trying to connect his anguish to what was going on around him – imagining that if he could change circumstance out there, he’d move back into a happier place.

But, as I discuss in this week’s blog, even though circumstances may change – one’s Inner world more than likely stays stuck.

I get professional people, often in their 30s and 40s, coming to me because they discover that in my practice I work with cannabis. Generally, they tell me that’s why they connected with me – that whatever I do with it, it may be the ticket to feeling better – about themselves and their station in life.


And more often than not, they want to return to a time in their life when they felt better – without the anxiety, the sadness, the depression – the despair, whatever is coming up for them.


But that’s not possible. It’s not possible to go back. You know why? The brilliant Swiss psychoanalyst, Carl Jung, he died in 1961 at age 85 had much to say about this. Jung was a visionary in informing Western psychology with Eastern mystical teachings. He explored the unconscious and concepts of the movement of psychic energy. He left us with a huge body of work laced with extraordinary insights.


He famously said: “The first half of life is devoted to forming a healthy ego, the second half is going inward and letting go of it.” He makes the same point in this quote:
“After the age of thirty, all psychological problems are spiritual in nature.”
In other words, for most people – in their 20’s – and I know I did this –they can stay busy and distracted and hide their shadow side from themselves. But at a certain age, it all begins to start falling apart and we may move into what’s called “The Dark Night of the Soul”.


We can’t hide from our shadow side any more. It pokes, it pushes, it presses and once that begins to happen, we got one of two choices, we either continue to wallow in our emotional pain – and maybe numb it with things like alcohol or prescription meds OR the other choice is to, as Jung says, “go inward and let go of it”.

And the portal to going inward so that we can let go of these roiling emotions is through meditation. Now, this is where my work embraces cannabis. The plant is an elegant spiritual tool to help you go inward. In my experience, cannabis is at its best in this role as a psychic companion to enhance and amplify the journey of going inward. I pair it with ancient breathwork and active practices to stir up this psyche energy that Jung talks about, in order to move out whatever is underpinning the emotional pain.


So what I say to those who come to me looking for a way to get out of their pain – their Dark Night of the Soul – is yes, of course, it’s entirely possible. But it’s not just about taking cannabis. It’s about the artful application of the plant with a method that is meant to navigate through the Dark Night of the Soul to the other side where the light, the freedom, the full embrace of our loving Soul resides.


Are you with me? Drop down to the comments section and let me know your experience with the Dark Night of the Soul – maybe you’re in the midst of it maybe you’re on the other side of it. Tell us about it.


I’m Becca Williams, and I want you to lead your most magnificent life, and I want to help you do that.